So my sickness has put me behind in my studying for finals, and has caused me to once again be unable to work out. I can't focus on anything. I feel like tidal waves keep crashing in on me. I feel like I'm finally starting to figure out a small portion of my life, and then some small wave comes crashing in as hard as a typhoon, and washes away the small glint of knowledge I think I've procured.
So I don't want to spend another blog post just ranting. This post has a point, a small one, but a point no the less. I went to get out my Yogi Sleepy Time Tea (lets face it, i can't afford to lose more sleep,) and a really great thing happened. The tea bag always has a quote on it. And this one had to do with running. Well not really running, but in a way it had to deal with running.
The quote stated "You can run after satisfaction, but satisfaction must come from within." I can chase my expectations all I want, but those unexpected things are going to happen. Sickness gets in the way, money gets lost in the shuffle, I might get injured along the way, but satisfaction will be found if I search within myself. I can't find it from anyone else. No person, and certainly no tangible item will leave me satisfied.
Now, one more quick thing I need to get out before I finish this blog post. I should mention that not all of these "tidal waves" are bad. I've had a lot of really great unexpected things happen to me as well. The best of them was falling in love. I don't think anyone my age goes into a relationship with the intention of falling in love. I found it where I least expected it. And even though it has made the last year of my life a living hell, I'm grateful I found it at all. How's that for ending optimistically?
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